“Representative”
there are times when i join a group of some sort just to hang out with these folks, literally have zero goal of being their “member” or “part of their goals” or something.
but then i got dragged.
years ago, when some of the people from that group saw me somewhere outside of the platform that i was in to talk to these folks, first thing that happen to me when these folk saw me first is basically,
are you XXXXXXXX member?
wasn't once, twice. if you know that was me, can you just, not drag that to where i was in
as if i am being the representative of the organization that I literally have zero goal on being participating with? to put on top of that, despite the requirement, i literally never joined or requested for joining their github org.
honestly, it felt like i was being watched. one thing that's obvious here, i really despise someone who literally take any kind of member to be their organization representative like literal, where if one did bad thing, then they got relentlessly fucked to death to the point they reach out to the irl stuff.
ever since i disconnect myself from that place, it never felt anything better. for one, there's someone who just realized why i despise a lot of things from them and then afraid of me hating them for eternity. “you just gave me a new lesson”, they say. does their trial and errors is all done for the sake of “lesson” that would be only better to them? the scratch is still on my mind.
i accepted their apologize. but i remain despising how it all went.
it's simply no good.