Yonle

I do not like to be forced to explain something that i'm personally not comfortable to talk about. And when that happens, I always hung up the phone immediately. That's exactly what happened to me this week.

My Mum dialed me and asked whenever the tuition has been paid. It has been a week, But it hasn't. I told her that, and then hung up immediately as i knew that she will ask me many thousands of times and then teach me how to “scold my Dad to do it immediately”.

And as i guessed, She called me back. But the moment i hear the first 3 words of the same thing, I hung up immediately, again. Several minutes after i write this, She dialed. Again. Was about to ask the same question again, Which then i hung up again. Immediately.

I did tell her several weeks ago, Or many times that i do not like to be forced to answer some of his questions. But she doesn't like that answer and then said that i'm basically the same as my Dad, and “his Big Son doesn't like her”.

So that's basically another reason on why i always hung up my phone immediately and always reconsider myself every time i was planning to go back to my hometown. Because if i did so, She will go with that same darn heavy set of lines once again. That includes when i refuse his solution. too.

Well. It's always been like that. At some other day, His instict to always corner my Dad to send her money (which is normal, basically. I can't blame her) nearly everyday 3 times a day basically led my Dad to literally block his number immediately.

He wasn't really refusing to send money to my Mum. I did send some sum of money that my Dad told me to sent to my Mom via my Uncle's Bank account (since we're in remote town), But when she heard that i'm the one that send it to her, She's very dead picky and refuse to accept the money and insisted that i should keep it for myself (while that money is actually reserved for her. Not me).

Speaking of which, The same situation that she already led into already causes me to block her 2 times for 2 straight months before. And that's me being called “dark-minded”, “disobedient”, and then the most legendary “why should you even exists if i knew you will grow like this” and finally “if i were reborn once again, I swear to myself that i do not want to have a husband and a child”.

From there, You can see why i hung up my phone on her immediately.

and there you have it.

This is basically the everyday life of mine. But whenever i accept myself to become some kind of beggar is something else.